While I still don't feel like I've really made friends yet, I'm doing better emotionally. I came to the realization that I was severely depressed. I went and talked to my doctor about it and he determined that I have seasonal affective disorder. So, I got put on Lexapro to help with it. It has helped so much and Kevin says that I'm much more like my old self. I had probably been dealing with this for a couple years before I finally realized what was going on. I should only need to be on the meds for a couple more months while it's still super yucky weather and then I should be good during the warm spring/summer months.
There are a few women in my ward that I would love to get to know better and really become friends with. I'm hoping to be able to in the near future. If only I wasn't so shy. I mean, I have come a long ways from how I was as a child, but as a child, other kids are usually a bit more understanding of shyness, so it wasn't quite so hard. I guess I sometimes just feel socially inept. I try to be in a conversation, but it's almost like I can't get my foot in the door so to speak. I'm working on it and hopefully, Heavenly Father will hear my prayers and help me to be able to make some good friends up here.
